so,
today's trg was quite okay.
yeah.
i guess so.
HA(:
b4 trg i was hoping so much it would rain,
then the first half hour dark clouds start to gather.
it seems like every where else rather bright except 4 knc,
which has dark clouds roaming above.
i thought,
it was a miracle.
my wish would probably come true after all.
NOT.
it rained for a few minutes, then stop.
walao-_-"
whats the point la.
the rain and sun doesnt like c div perhaps.
OR MAYBE NOT C DIV,
ITS ME.
HAHAHAHA.
anyway,
this week i learned something:

you should NEVER EVER trust weather forcasts(:
watever.
hee.

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both my thumbs.
they are seriously annoying.
hmm.
when i catch certain balls,
it isnt painful.
only when i catch the ball in a certain way that time
then i can feel that pain throbbing at my thumbs.
when i bent my thumbs,
its worse.
the pain can get super unbearable.
and thats the time when it feels swollen.
wth.
annoying shit.

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1 day.
1 chance.
1 place.
1 time.
1 decision.
1 future.
1 aim.
1 wish.
1 miracle.
1 goal.
1 dream.
1 everything...

STRIVE FOR IT.

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"jiayou", "do your best", "work hard", "YOU CAN DO IT"... maybe u should seriously think it through, that perhaps it is IMPOSSIBLE after all?
hanging on to all the encouragement, only to get tired after a while, but yet not allowing myself to give up, its stupid...
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its a wonder how a single word can make me depressed so much. perhaps cause no one really understands how i m feeling now, so thats why i m learning to depend on myself. it is something i must learn to do. i cannot always turn to ppl ard me 4 help, making them worry for me. i guess its still best if i can just try managing everything by myself, though i know it will be difficult, but its still better than troubling everyone(: yeah.
having this troubling problem tugging at ur heart, yet at the same time missing someone so much, its really torturous...