in my most distraught moments, everything within me was completely destroyed. i lost the "me", i used to be. gone, i couldnt find it.

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this morning, grrh.
i really really wanted to shout our lungs out
like how we did so yesterday at ecp at the big big rock there,
it felt so good.
i want to do it again.

then off to paint the house haha,
quite fun.
then bathe in the bathtub hahaha.
i want a bubble bath next time yay!
(:

and i admitted to something i thought i would never confess to anyone in my whole life.
wells.

then dinner at macs,
i ate ALOT ALOT.
its like no matter how much i ate i still felt hungry, so weird o.o
plus after finshing my meal,
i was also picking my bro's food off his tray HAHAHA.

reading d's post got me thinking abt ______ and mr alex tang HAHAHA.
and i was like laughing to myself omg.

i dont want school holidays.
its boring.
i want school, with everyone there ):
i dont want time to pass so quickly whenever we are together.

so sad,
i dont want to shift ):
this house consist of so many memories,
since i was young till now,
sweet or bitter, its all there.
its really difficult to just leave it behind,
and walk away.

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no matter how much i deceive myself, no matter how hard i try, no matter what i do, i still would not be able to succeed in doing so, cant you see? its so difficult, with everything around.